When to say when, enough is enough, one too many, tied one on and so on and so on....that's exactly what I did to myself last night. At the time it was fun and I thoroughly enjoyed myself. BUT, and that but is in caps for a reason, I will not be doing THAT again.
I decided to have a light dinner. The plan was to go see a band which meant dancing would be in order. We got there, the beer was cold and delicious. The vibe was good and friends were smiling. The problem started when the fun ended, naturally!
I figured that I was poisoned. I will describe how I felt and my purpose is to document it so I can remind myself if necessary. Two hours of sleep was a recipe for disaster but I was called in to work and had no choice but to go. In my efforts to treat my body well I decided oatmeal from dunkin donuts would be wise and of course a coffee.
I drove to work feeling awful and exhausted. I could not wait to get out and ended up leaving as soon as I could. During the drive home I purposely took notice of exactly how I felt. I will attempt to describe it exhausted, bloated, muscles tense, jaw tense in efforts to not have the 3 second warning before puking, sensitive to light but not a headache, cold, wanting to puke or poop... Whatever would make this ugly feeling go away. For the first time in my life I realized that I never analyzed it quite like this before. I did not like any of the above mentioned symptoms at all! I will never do that to my body again ! I will treat my body with respect on the inside and out. I have worked to hard to come as far as I have come and I will not allow this self disrespect. I am stronger than that!
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